The Girl On The Left.
And we all know,
That we'd all rather beThe Girl on the Left.
Monday, 15 November 2010
"And if you can't find your way, hear my voice - follow the sound."
This would have been me two and a bit years ago. I weigh 2 stone less than I did in this picture, so I'm kind of taking comfort in the fact that I can't still look like that. And yes, it is the same beach as the picture in my last post. Portugal FTW :)
Ttfn,
Girl on the Right.
x
(The Autumn Film - Follow the Sound)
Monday, 8 November 2010
"Rumours have it that you are in love again. Rumours that are completely unsubstantiated."
This photo was taken earlier this year, whilst I was on holiday. I wasn't actually able to weigh myself at this time, mainly because the few months previously had been the "lets take [me] to the doctors and get some fat medicine to make her put on weight" phase. That was rubbish... But anyway. I'm not sure whether or not I weigh more/less than what I did in this picture, but I definitely know that I don't look anything like the Girl on the Left.
But I also know that just making this edit has given me a bit more motivation to stay strong. So far so good.
Ttfn,
Girl on the Right.
x
(Regina Spektor - December)
"I'm all out of foolproof ideas so don't ask me how to get started, it's all uncharted."
I read somewhere that we should be our own thinspiration. Personally, I like this idea as a concept, but how can it work in reality? If you aren't happy with what you are, or what you have ever been, then how can you 'aspire' to be yourself?
When I see photos of myself, I find them pretty triggering. Just because, as an art student, I've learnt to be critical of photos and images so that I can change them. So, I see a photo of myself, and instantly I will see the flaws. I will see everything that I don't like. Usually (and yes, it's pathetic), I'll remove that spot, or fix my eyebrows, or make my smile just that more smiley. But then I realised, everything that I hate about my body and shape, I see that in photos too. So why can't I edit that? Obviously not publicly, it would be a bit odd for one photo suddenly coming out of me looking a lot better. But, why can't I edit these photos to make myself look how I 'aspire' to look, and then use those as my thinspiration? Something that I could actually achieve, knowing that this is how I could actually look.
So, I thought I would share this 'experiment' with you, using (badly) edited versions of myself as my own 'thinspiration', to see if maybe, this will give me the strength that I need to become the girl on the left, and stop being,
The Girl on the Right.
x
(Sara Bareilles - Uncharted)
When I see photos of myself, I find them pretty triggering. Just because, as an art student, I've learnt to be critical of photos and images so that I can change them. So, I see a photo of myself, and instantly I will see the flaws. I will see everything that I don't like. Usually (and yes, it's pathetic), I'll remove that spot, or fix my eyebrows, or make my smile just that more smiley. But then I realised, everything that I hate about my body and shape, I see that in photos too. So why can't I edit that? Obviously not publicly, it would be a bit odd for one photo suddenly coming out of me looking a lot better. But, why can't I edit these photos to make myself look how I 'aspire' to look, and then use those as my thinspiration? Something that I could actually achieve, knowing that this is how I could actually look.
So, I thought I would share this 'experiment' with you, using (badly) edited versions of myself as my own 'thinspiration', to see if maybe, this will give me the strength that I need to become the girl on the left, and stop being,
The Girl on the Right.
x
(Sara Bareilles - Uncharted)
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